A lot of people in the world date more than one person in their life. A lot of people in the world fall in love with more than one person in their life. A lot of people share in mutual love with more than one person in their life. A lot of people break up with or are dumped by more than one person in their life.
Because of this common experience, people assume if you’ve had love and it’s been taken from you, well, tough nuts to you. So has everyone. And everyone moves on and everyone finds someone new and tries again and it all works out eventually.
People act like being hung up on one person makes you weak or stupid, or that it’s just a phase and you’re gonna move on. They tell you that you can never really live the life you’re meant to live if you’re always missing someone from your past, if you don’t look at other possibilities of someone to love.
But see, here’s the thing.
I have one person.
one.
He is the only one I have ever loved. The only one I have ever dated. The only one I have ever fallen head over heels for. The only one who kissed me like he meant it. The only one who gave me his heart. The only one who took all of mine. The only one who knows me inside and out, better than I know myself. The only one…I will ever love.
The only one.
Some people only fall in love once. I’m one of those people.
So go ahead, tell me it’ll all change in time. Throw your life experience in my face and say, “see?? see?? I thought my first boyfriend was the one, and that I could never love again, but LOOK! I found someone better! I loved again!”
Good for you. I’m very happy for you.
But what you don’t understand is that’s not going to happen for me. I’m never going to love anyone else. I fell in love once. I had one shot. The deed is done.
And you know what?
Even though not having that love anymore hurts like hell every single day, I’m okay with the fact that he’s my one and only. He’s brought me more joy in the time I’ve known him, even during the time we’ve been apart, than anyone in the world ever could in a lifetime.
So don’t pity me. Don’t tell me to move on. Don’t tell me I’m in denial and I’m wasting my life.
My life has never been put to better use. Not ever.
So please let me love the greatest person I have ever known. Even if he doesn’t love me back.
