I have this friend, this really great, amazing friend, that I love and that I would totally take a bullet for without a second thought. I've done my best to always be there for her, to listen and respond, and to stick up for her to her stupid-ass, loser boyfriend that threw her heart on the ground and treated her like dirt. I've done my best to be a good friend, in every way that I know how.
She never calls me one of her "best friends." She acts like she loves me so much, but she never seems to want to say that anywhere publicly. It's like, I'm a back-up friend to her.
And now...now she's hanging out with a guy who screwed me over. She knows everything that happened between him and me. She knows what a complete and total DOUCHE he is. And trust me, he has NOT changed in the past year and a half. But she's buddying up to him, acting like he's the great guy, and one of her closest friends.
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME.
I don't understand what kind of "friend" does that. I mean, I can't tell her who she can and can't be friends with. I can't forbid her from hanging out with him.
But honestly, if I was in her shoes, I would NEVER hang out with this dude. On the contrary, I'd punch him in his motherfucking tiny nuts.
I love her so much. But what she's doing is really hurting me. And I don't know how to tell her. I don't know how to express my frustration. I don't want her to feel like I'm being controlling or ungrateful or bitchy.
But that asshole fucked me up, to the point of me almost committing suicide.
Forgive me if I have a little trouble with someone I consider to be my close friend being nice to him.
This is bullshit. And I'm pissed and hurt.
Goddamn.
#fuckmylife
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